I left the clinic without looking back, I got into the car in complete silence, my body was trembling, and I had a bittersweet sensation in my mouth, the last words I said to him echoed in my mind: "“You know that's a big favour you would do me Nick, die! And that I swear would make me the happiest woman..."

I felt like I was about to drown, "Am I crazy? How was I able to tell him that?", in my mind I couldn't stop seeing his saddened eyes and anguish invaded me and in a desperate tone of voice