Lillie

Getting my courage up and getting out at once is what I should do. I've been in the bathroom for almost an hour or so, or that's what I saw on my watch. He told me to take a shower to feel more comfortable and relaxed, but neither that nor anything else calms my nerves.

I'm a coward.

I was supposed to have already decided to give myself to him, but I'm still so afraid. It's because of many things, not only because of the fact that I will lose my virginity, but also because I will give my