She thought about how she had been so insufferably arrogant as she ordered Charlie around in the past. She would also constantly be screaming at him, bullying, and insulting Charlie in the past. Elaine was truly filled with regrets at this time.
She could not help but think to herself, ‘What if Charlie still hates me deep in his heart? Perhaps he would be happy that I have gone missing this time. If he really does not want me to go back home, he will not be bothered to come and rescue me at all