She loved him! She continuously kicked him, cursed him, scratched him, all to warn herself, not to fall for him and his touch.
‘Don’t fall for him, Sabrina! You’ve lost everything now! You saw him with another woman! Don’t fall!’ She warned herself time and time again. Until the moment she fell for him -- hook, line, and sinker.
Her tears soaked through the pillowcases. In the end, the person she hated was herself. She had used up all her strength until she was exhausted.
By the time she wok