In the analysis of future psychology, homosexuality is a reversible condition of human character, an optional stage of their sexuality that can be changed, no moment when a man or woman decides to say no this is the desire to be his own nature , and tries to convince you of this:

— You, like other people, may even be born with a homosexual tendency, but that does not mean that you are forced to live in such conditions, it is a choice, an option

— But how to say no to a desire that burns within us? How do we have the strength to find that crazy desire that we feel involves other people similar to us, when using the opposite sex? You have no idea how hard it is to fight against yourself, it's a battle that is almost always lost

— André, we have been friends for some time, you are ten years old today and you maintain that time without any sexual involvement, whether as a homosexual or not, you are still pure, virgin. Different from those who were weaker and yielded from the first to the desires they felt. This means that there is still a great possibility that you will overcome this perfect inclination of your being.

— You know how much you admire and think it's cool that you are always trying to change as people, but I'm like nothing and nothing, nobody can make me be different. I was born this way, strange, different from the other boys, with the appearance of a man. And the way of a woman. Understand that homosexuality is not a disease that takes medicine and logo we are cured, that is personality, brings luggage, when we were born

— I do not agree with this concept and prove that your reasoning is respecting the same mistake. Look in a mirror and see: You are a man and you were born to live as one, so stop forgetting to win by that false appearance of a woman and react, lute, whatever God predestines, say no to that urge that impels you to want to act so vertically!

— You are terribly persistent with things, you know?

— You are right, friend, when you decide to do something that is not easily described, and you do everything to change that wrong concept that you do to yourself. You are a man, despite all that, and you help to convince that

— Okay, your conversation, I don't know what to discuss, but for the moment I still feel the woman and I can stop this talk of passion. Because it won't happen!

— That's what we'll see!

This was the period in which the Catholic Feast of Lady of Nazareth took place in the city, considered one of the largest Catholic festivals in Brazil, where thousands of people come from all over the country. During the event, which usually lasts three days of activities. With Sunday being turned to the public of debtors in process, as families gather in their homes, together with relatives and friends, to seek tradition together. André was brought up in a Christian home, but he had been disappointed by the prejudiced way in which he was treated, exactly by those who identified themselves as children of God and who taught to respect the love of Christ.

So, he changed his concepts and became a Catholic.  Accompany a friend at masses and participate in the Feast party on that occasion and it is strange how the pilgrims make their sacrifices, paying supposed miracles received by the saint. He started to frequent new environments, made new friends and suddenly the old life of mockery and humiliation was stopped. Sueli visits her son periodically and encourages her to continue her studies and never give up fighting for her dreams.

Alberto and Rogério, seemed completely forgotten, no doubt asked by him. While taking a long journey of survival to fate, her side remained an insistent friend who did everything to use it steadily. Away from any friendship with other guys. Often, he even faced himself with anger, defending himself from his insinuations.  Always charging him hard to react against his desire contrary to nature and if he is determined to accept the masculinity that exists within him.

And little by little, she has already shown positive result. Mainly with regard to her effeminate way, after much struggle André showed signs of progress and behaves in a more masculine way. Time passed very quickly and Karla went to college to study psychology, while he decided to become more involved in his uncles' business.

The interaction between them was quiet and they started to work side by side in the restaurants they owned. Gradually he became interested in cooking and at eighteen he already had a good command of the art of preparing dishes with diverse recipes, which aroused his desire to specialize in the area. Becoming an excellent boss, expanding the business of the new family that welcomed him, four years later, Karla successfully completed his psychology course. He set up his office and attended to the first clients. And he was very well known throughout the society of Pará because of his admirable culinary skills.

In view of this, the uncles handed in their responsibility the restaurants, which multiplied to six larger ones, visited daily by the most respected social names and their fame crossed borders, spreading through several states. And it reached neighboring countries, leading it to receive praise from important critics and some awards for its gastronomic achievements. It, was a cold night of incomparable moonlight, and the two friends shared the same feeling of victory:

— We finally managed to achieve our ideals, my friend. I, became the psychologist I always dreamed of and look at you, who knew, the greatest chef in this region

— Hey, not only from this region, but from Brazil and several neighboring countries, do you forget how many prizes I've won?

— Sorry your boring, it's true, you have come too far!

— And everything was like that, suddenly!

— It is the fate of each person, my friend, when it is written it happens and no one can stop it. Look at his trajectory: He was born in a family that he didn't seem to belong to, they were full of prejudices about his way of being. After much humiliation on the part of the father who loved religion more than his own son and the egocentric brother, he was supported by his uncles, who had no heir, became this important chef and now owns this chain of restaurants visited by the high society. See how things are, dear, just unexplainable!

 — Yes, from an effeminate poor, rejected by everyone, expelled from home and without even the right to attend the church where I grew up, singing with the other boys in the children's choir, for being gay, now I am respected by everyone

 — And on top of that she improved that weird girlish way, she stopped more with the hooligans!

 —  Stop being sarcastic, you bore, it wasn't even that much!

 — Oh no? Well know that sometimes it was difficult to know if it was André or Andreia!

 — How hateful you, friend, stop it!

 — That's right, I stopped the joke, but tell me one thing: Although I hit you a lot to keep you from having any homosexual experience, did you happen to resist and give in?

 — Of course not. I was tempted several times, yes, but I resisted. There were times when I almost gave in, once I went to a guy's apartment and it almost happened, but at the right time I left!

 — My goodness, so there was still a climate?

 — No, you fool, if you want to know, even that didn't happen!

 — And why not?

  — It's something inexplicable! I felt strongly attracted to him. But when we arrived at the time when everything had to happen, I was repulsed by him, when I was touched, I was disgusted!

  — Well, then, here is the confirmation of my thesis: You're an effeminate, but you're not gay!

  — I am very confused, as I was born with this kind of woman, I have the greatest lust when I see a beautiful guy and the moment I am touched by him I feel disgusted?

   — My friend, it turns out that not all effeminates are necessarily gay, some just have that delicate way, but deep down they are men. The same thing happens with bisexuals, they look normal, but deep down they like people of the same sex and opposites

   — What the fuck is this mess, because God didn't keep creating men and women, did he have to complicate things?

   — Come here, since you felt disgusted about kissing a man.

 Why don't you kiss me to see what you feel?

   — Freaked out, girl, huh?!

   — Do you want to stop being boring, André? Come, kiss me!

   — My goodness, Karla, let me go!

She hugs him tightly and puts her mouth in his, delicately seeking the taste of his full, red lips, making him feel a strange shiver and a pleasure never experienced before. Since that day, André was confused, as much as he tried, he could not understand himself.   Until recently he was completely sure he had sexual interest in men, but now, after being kissed by Karla and feeling that strange sensation, he was not so sure of anything else, she strove to stay away from her friend, who started to complain about the countless excuses given by him whenever she asked him out. He claimed too much work or urgent commitments.

The truth is that André couldn't stop thinking about how nice it was to be kissed by her and he still didn't know how to deal with this new situation in his life. An effeminate woman attracted to a woman? This question took away his sleep and appetite every day. Karla, unhappy with the frequent apologies given by her friend in order to keep her away, decided to close the distance between them that sunny Sunday afternoon:

 — Finally, I was lucky to meet you at home, come on, let's go out a little   

— Sorry, friend, I'm unwilling to leave

— Stop it, André! Do you really think you'll be able to avoid me my whole life? Come on, let's go to Orla to see the sunset, we need to talk!

 — Okay, come in and wait a minute. Within minutes the two were already riding in Karla's brand new HB20, her first car of the year bought with money earned from her own work and without help from her parents.

The two friends would learn to have a greater affinity for each other after that meeting, which would change the course of their lives. The village of Icoaraci, located between the Guajará and Maguari rivers, developed to the point of being recognized as a city, despite continuing to be administered by the local prefecture, without its own government. As well as the other islands of Mosqueiro and Cotijuba. Both, too, with beaches frequently visited by people from Pará.

On that particular day the couple decided to relax in Orla, an area built on the banks of Guajará, with its many bars and snack bars with their live music. Chosen by an increasing number of visitors looking to escape the busy life in the capital during the week. After a snack and a good chat in one of the several snack bars, they went hand in hand to parade down the cobbled street artistically prepared for that purpose. And, as they walked, they talked about the beginning of that great friendship:

 — Remember when we met and how you were scrawny and shy?

 — Yes, and you all freckled!

 — But look how we have changed over the years.

 Now you have become this beautiful boy ...

 — And you, you are beautiful woman!

 — But lo and behold, I thought I would never see you giving such a compliment to a woman!

 André lets go of Karla's hand and moves away to the side, leans against the parapet that protected pedestrians from the banks of the river, and with a lost look towards the waters rocked by the tide and the force of the strong wind that blew, while she silently followed him closely, concluded:

 — I am confused with myself, everything is obscure, my feelings, my desires.

 — I was like that after that kiss, I felt something that I can't understand and explain

 — Something bad?

 — I'm not sure, as I said, I'm still confused. How can I have felt desires when being touched by you, a woman?

 — Hey, you hadn't told me about wishes!

 — But that's exactly what I felt and that's why I'm disturbed until now, because I've always been attracted to men!

She hugs him, being much taller, leans her head on his chest and murmurs affectionately:

 — You are in love with me...

 — You can only be kidding, are you crazy?

 — I'm nothing, this is passion and madness!

 — Karla, make no mistake, I'm gay and my thing is to enjoy men!

 — Then explain the lust you feel for me.

Or will you deny that you get excited when I hug you and full of desire to see the curves of my body in this glued outfit?

 — Now you freaked out! How long will I have to say not to get my hopes up about this? Come on, understand that we are two women, we like men!

 — What a hate André! Stop hiding behind that effeminate way and take on this masculine side that wants to get out of there and is prevented because of this mania of wanting to be a woman!

 — I see you as a friend, my little sister, try to understand this please!

Karla walks away, upset with his rejection, because she dies of passion for her friend. Always attentive, André approaches her and tries in vain to calm her down, getting only light pushes. After a while, there is finally understanding between the two and they watch the movement of the waters, embracing in a high part of the Orla, which allowed a privileged view of the place. She knew that André was not being sincere, he had confessed to being confused by that kiss.

Then he says he has no interest in her as a woman. It didn't make sense he was certainly trying to hide his true feelings. But she would know how to wait for the right moment to confirm her suspicions that, even though he felt gay and confessed to being interested in men, it was she who authorized. Deep down, the psychologist Karla Maciel knew that there was a male trapped in that effeminate body. The end of that day was profitable to increase the hope that soon the dream of having him forever in her arms would be fulfilled. It had been several weeks since they had gone.

André was invited to participate in an important event in a hotel with high social status, located in Rio de Janeiro. It was a traditional presentation of the most renowned masters in national cuisine.  And all the guests stayed there for a week, they were in pairs that occupied the suites. Occurring the meeting between André and Lucio, who became close friends, as if they had known each other for a long time.

One night the two friends were having dinner together. And throughout the conversation that flowed freely, they discovered several affinities in common, mainly about the sexual option, both were gay. André felt comfortable showing his interest in being able to live his first sexual experience with a partner, as he spent his entire life running away from himself, avoiding giving in to that desire that burned inside him and that seemed to be the great chance to live the long dreamed, adventure:

 — So, you're still a virgin, André?

 — Can believe!

 — Never, not even with women?

 — Nothing! But I confess to having masturbated countless times

 — As a man, or ...?

 — In every way possible, you fool

 — How about now do it for real?

 — Delayed!

 — Come on, then!

The two boys went back to the hotel where they were staying and that night André had his first homosexual experience with Silvio. That from that moment on, he would also become her first boyfriend. The following day they participated in the last presentation at the event that would choose the best chefs in Brazil.Then André returned to Belem, where from there he started to have constant amorous encounters with Silvio, who lived in the neighboring city of Castanhal, where he preferred to stay with his boyfriend.

In order that Karla did not realize what she was doing and thus avoided a possible break in the old friendship. Twenty days after ending the gastronomic contest that took place in Rio de Janeiro. The two winners were announced, with André in first and Silvio in second place, which deserved a great celebration from the two. However, there was someone who couldn't stay out of this party. The friend for whom she had a lot of affection and owed a lot of gratitude for everything she represented in her life since they met.

 — I cannot deny her the right to celebrate with me this important achievement

 — Sure, I understand you

 — Karla is like a sister to me, has she been all these years? By my side, always supporting me, without any prejudice

 — The only thing that worries me is the fact that she loves you, and if you suddenly end up giving in to this woman's whims and get involved just because you consider her too special in your life?

 — She's gone crazy, Silvio, I would never have this kind of involvement with her, besides I'm committed to you!

 — Do you swear to me that there really isn't this possibility?

 — Dude I love you!

 The two lovers hugged and kissed with great passion, and a week later André and Karla took care of the preparations for the big party that would take place at the three, star restaurant Marley, a tribute to the legendary reggae father Bob Marley, who died in 1980, victim of cancer. It was the year of 2009, when the most popular gastronomic chef in Pará and one of the most important in the country, he paid a great tribute to himself and his friend Silvio, for his recent conquest. In those three nights of celebrations, with the doors fully open to the Pará public. From the middle and upper classes, the renowned Jamaican singer Gregory Isaacs performed.

 Passing through the capital during his tour of the country, presenting his romantic reggae that delighted all who were there. During the party André introduced Karla to his new friend, whom he met during his stay in Rio, who found him very friendly and attractive. Causing some embarrassment,  because André was flushed with jealousy when he realized that she was flirting with her boyfriend. But there was nothing he could say or do to avoid such a situation, since acting in this way would make clear to her the loving involvement that existed between him and Lucius. Thus, he felt obliged to bear quietly to see her becoming more and more interested in him, without somehow being able to avoid embarrassment.

 But that did not stop them from arguing for this reason. Days after day the bond between the three only increased, they started to live in close relationship.  André was confused in his feelings. She did not know exactly if she would be jealous for fear of losing Lucius to her friend or if the reason would be the other way around, that is, if in fact there was some feeling of love or passion for Karla inside her, as she was always saying. Even though nothing was defined yet. He only knew that seeing them together, even just talking, made him jealous. One night, at one of the usual meetings held at Karla's house, the conversation followed an awkward path:

  — I will take advantage of the heat of the drink to make an outburst: Lucio, I'm in love with you!

  — What, are you crazy?

  — Calm down, André, what ruder attitude is this?

  — Rude and inexplicable! Can we know the reason for such a surprise to see a woman claim that she is in love with a man? After all, as far as I know, Lucius is free and unimpeded

The two boys exchanged accusing glances and André tried to fix what had happened:

  — Sorry, friend, it was really bad, I'm sorry!

  — What happened to you to be so surprised by my statement?

  — I think it's because we have known each other for so long and I never saw you in love

  — Not really, André, are you sure about that? He was embarrassed, intimidated, because he knew she was referring to the countless times when she declared his passion to him and was rejected

  — In fact, I really think you were annoyed to hear my statement to Lucius

  — Of course not, and why would it bother me?

  — I don't know, but I intend to find out.

The two boys continued to have their love affairs without Karla knowing about it and André's jealousy burned whenever he was harassed by Karla. The worst thing about that situation was to realize that Lucio seemed to be more and more fascinated by Karla's insistent conquest, and the fights became constant between him and André, who became indifferent to her friend, due to the jealousy that consumed her.

One night, when the three of them were at a party, Lucio and Karla danced together to a song that played in a reserved space in the room. While André waited at the next table almost without restraining himself in anger, but there was nothing he could do to prevent them from continuing that romantic scene. It would seem that there was something between the two and until then no one knew of their intimate involvement.

The bitterness in André's heart was so great when he realized the idiotic role he was playing. Because her boyfriend took advantage of the situation to enjoy his friend, who decided to pay back. A long time ago, since they arrived there, another young man, appearing to be about twenty years old and of an admirable physique. Who flirted without any embarrassment, despite having already noticed the flirtation, he avoided responding in respect to Julius, But, given his little case of respecting him, he began to smile widely at the new suitor, who immediately addressed him:

 — Hi, I'm Fernando, how are you?

 — André, nice to meet you, all right

 — From an early age I watch you, it seems that only your friends have fun at the party, don't you know how to dance?

 — Yes of course!

 — And why haven't you chosen someone for that yet, shyness?

 — Maybe, I'm a little introverted

 — Do you want to dance with me?

 — What?

 — What, never saw two men dancing?

 — Sorry, I have a little party

 — Can I ask a very personal question?

 — Sure, feel free

 — I was watching the way you walk. Are you gay or do you have that effeminate way by chance?

 — No, I'm really gay, is there a problem with that for you?

 — Of course not, I'm happy to know

 — It's because?

 — Because I was interested in you 

 André looked quickly at the couple dancing close by, and looked down, as if making a brief reflection:

 — It seems that the boy who is dancing with his friend is something more than a simple friend

 — Yes, he is my boyfriend and she is my best friend

 — And why the apparent disappointment?

 — Lucio and I started a few months ago. My friendship with Karla has been going on for years. She recently declared herself to him and it seems that there is some acceptance on the part his

 — I understand, and what do you intend to do about it, stand there while she steals her boyfriend and he lets himself be taken, without taking any action?

— And what could she do, she doesn't know about us

— Geez, does your friend even have an idea of ​​what is going on between you?

— In no way, before meeting Lucio she had fallen in love with me. And swore that one day we would have an affair, but since our adolescence I avoided her as a woman and her interest gradually diminished. Then she met him and fell in love at first

— Oh my! I can imagine how difficult it is for you to endure this

— You have no idea, my friend, it hurts a lot in here!

Well, but since you can't do anything, let's go out for a while to relax

— Where are we going?

— We'll be alone somewhere

— Okay, let's go!

 The two were already heading for the exit, when suddenly Fernando is surprised with a strong punch in the face, given by Lucio, who when seeing them together and leaving the place was very jealous, leaving for the violence.

Karla was astonished without understanding the explosive attitude of her friend and together with André tried desperately to avoid the worst.  While the two continued to attack each other, exchanging punches and kicks. After a few minutes the two were restrained by the security guards at the establishment and there was a truce, but André was indignant:

 — Do you want to explain to me what antics this was, Lucius?

 — As a clown, cheat on me with this bastard and still ask this question?

Upon hearing Lucius' response, Karla finally understands the reasons for all this confusion, and is perplexed by what she has just witnessed, while continuing to hear the two argue:

— Okay, so you mean I should watch you quietly having fun with Karla, Inert without the right to do the same?

— Karla is our friend and we were just dancing!

— For me she is just a great friend, but for you it is more than that. Because you know her intentions, that she is in love! And even though you know about our involvement, you got carried away by seduction and are enjoying the situation, are you now giving yourself a wounded pride?

— You owed me respect!

— And as for you, Lucius, didn't you owe me the same?

 Karla listened to everything in silence, but at that moment she shouted with great irritation:

— Wait a minute, do you mean there is an affair between the two and the idiot here hasn't even been informed? And you, André, have you really surrendered to this damn gay trend? I really admire you three, what a shameful situation I am in now, I hope I never see you move again!

— Calm down, Karla, we can explain!

—  Don't you dare touch me or address me from now on, André, you're dead!

With these words, the young woman ended her speech and hurriedly left the place towards the avenue. She intended to take a taxi to return to her home, but was surprised by a car that was coming at high speed. The accident was inevitable.

 Karla was picked up by the vehicle and launched a few meters away. And the driver, drunk, ran away without providing help to the victim, and in great despair the three boys were trying to save their friend. requesting the service of paramedics who only arrived at the accident site half an hour later, she remained passed out, lying on the asphalt, and badly injured. When, at last, she was rescued and taken to the emergency room and when she got there, great despair began, as they were told that she had no beds available to receive her.

The girl continued in that corridor of the cramped health house, lying on a stretcher until there was a place available to accommodate her. But André, using his own resources, without delay wasted his friend to a clinic in the city where she went soon. referred to the operating room because of serious fractures in the broken arms and legs.

As the day broke, while waiting for any information from the medical team about the patient, they were notified that the surgical procedure had been a great success and Karla was doing well. After being aware that she was safe, even in critical condition, due to the fractures, they returned to André's residence. Where they rested and would return during visiting hours. Lucius felt guilty for what happened and he continued to regret:

 — It is all my fault, if I had not acted in that inconsequential way, she would not have come out of there upset nor would I be in this situation now

 — Without a doubt, if anyone here has full responsibility for this disgrace, it is really you!

 — Please stop acting like two children, this is not the time to be pointing the finger at what happened, the important thing now is to hope that Karla will recover soon!

 — You are absolutely right, André

 — Of course, Fernando, we need to pray for our friend

  — It was approaching fifteen o'clock, when they received a phone call.

Informing them that the patient would have her health status changed and because of that she had been transferred to the Intensive Care Unit to receive special attention and, without wasting time, they returned to the clinic to follow the result more closely. In the days that followed André was torn between his work and visits to the clinic. Place where Karla remained hospitalized. It was two months in this routine until she was happily discharged and returned to her parents' house. His apartment was rented and his office closed indefinitely. Not enough time or emotional conditions to think about relationships.

Just worried about your best friend's brief recovery. Whom he saw as the only sister. Who in the worst moments since he was forced to leave his parents' home never left him, he decided to end his relationship with Lucio and moved away from Fernando, dedicating himself entirely to Karla. There were twelve weeks of daily visits to a friend who was recovering from the accident that night, when unnoticed, she was taken by surprise by a vehicle and launched several meters from where she was, without the driver providing any help.

After recovering from surgery, he remained in a wheelchair for a while. However, always counting on the pleasant company of the friend who spent most of the time by his side. During conversations that had many confessions were made and the bond of friendship that united them was further strengthened. At the end of the physical therapy, when Karla had already recovered her health and became independent from the wheelchair, steadying her steps, André made an unexpected invitation:

— My friend, how about a trip to forget all that bad phase that we have been going through these last months?

— It seems that you read my thoughts, André, I was really thinking about this possibility

— So, ready, we travel in a week, the trip to the beautiful beaches of Fortaleza, in the state of Ceará, was immensely pleasant for Karla, who needed to overcome all that trauma experienced during the accident. But, the plan of destiny was to bring the couple even closer.

Para que finalmente o plano de amor que foi escrito sobre ele pudesse ser realizado. E naquela linda noite de luar os dois amigos ficaram na areia da praia, a noite toda conversaram:

— Are you happy now that you ended up giving in to your insane desires?

 — Do you really want to know the truth?

 — Of course!

 — No, I'm not ... I always believed that if I assumed my homosexuality, I would feel fulfilled and at peace with myself, but I was wrong