"I am disloyal for not being able to bear my master's burden when I am a retainer. I am unjust for not being able to alleviate my master's misery when I am a follower. And I have simply made even more mistakes when I accidentally let news of this slip out, and all the media have come to witness this when I'm begging for forgiveness…

"In other words, everything that has happened right now is because of me! I've come to beg for forgiveness when I'm scared of accepting my punishment because I've f